“What to do if you find yourself stuck in a crack in the ground underneath a giant boulder you can’t move, with no hope of rescue. Consider how lucky you are that life has been good to you so far. Alternatively, if life hasn’t been good to you so far, which given your current circumstances seems more likely, consider how lucky you are that it won’t be troubling you much longer.” — Douglas Adams
Sometimes, you have no clue why you’re losing control and what’s driving you to that side of the mountain, where you just want to jump off the cliff. Dive deep down below. And stay there, to think through! Think about everything in life. What matters, what doesn’t matter. How to stay strong when you’re collapsing. What things to keep. What things to let go. How to let go. Where to go. What to do.
Life doesn’t hurt. It’s people who wrong you, make you suffer for their amusement. And what sucks is, you allow yourself to suffer.
I’m giving a lot of thought to death these days. It’s not a suicidal thinking, don’t worry, but it’s just something that I come to be grateful for at the end of the day, you know? It’s like a hope you feel when you have spent a hard day and the days are just getting harder as time passes no matter what you do to ease off things. You are confused and angry at yourself, and people. That’s the moment then, at the end of the day, when you finally realize, Ah! Thank God! At least Life will end one day.
Sooner or later.
Doesn’t that make “dying” a gift from God then? I guess it makes sense. Just imagine if you had to live forever. The pain then also would have lived with you forever. Till eternity. And that’s scary.. Living forever and not dying